Words I Needed to Hear (And Some I Didn’t)

What are your first thoughts when you think of Depression and Anxiety? Some might say they are scary, or unknown. For me, it is my life.

I didn’t always struggle with Anxiety and Depression. It started after High School. I believe it was brought on by a Doctor who messed with my medications. I went in for something to help me focus at college. I supposedly had ADD. By the end of my one appointment I was diagnosed as BiPolar. At a follow up with this same Doctor I was diagnosed with just Depression and medication was adjusted again. I was tired of the run around and finally went to a specialist and found out it was really a Mood Balance disorder.

I went through a lot of dark times from my first “diagnosis” to my last. Times when I didn’t understand why I couldn’t “just be happy”.

Being told: Snap out of it. Just be happy. You are crazy. (Ya, I was told I was crazy from a guy I thought I was going to marry 🙄). None of those things helped. In fact they made it worse. It made me feel more isolated.

My family helped a lot. Because they would tell me all of these great important things that I needed to hear.

I love you. Do you need a break? You aren’t alone. It’s the wiring in your brain, you don’t have control over it. I know you don’t mean it.

Yes I take medication daily to help me battle my depression and anxiety. It doesn’t cure it and make it go away, but it makes it tollerable. It makes it easier to live with. I still have bad days. But my bad days now are no where near as bad as they were before.

Having a good support system is key in handling depression and anxiety. Having people who understand what you are going through is important. Someone who will understand when you are having a bad day. It’s also important to have someone who knows your plan of action for when you are having a bad day. I’ve also seen having a “Mental Health Crisis Kit”. Whatever helps you is not silly or stupid. And if anyone tells you it is, you don’t need them in your life. Seriously.


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